Archive | March, 2009


20 Mar

Looks like I made a mistake and was just being too paranoid. I hate it when that happens to me. I really need to trust him 100%. But trust is being earned isn’t? Oh well, it’s all a matter of trusting your partner.


10 Mar

Okay, for now I will just let him. I won’t say anything. I won’t ask. I won’t exert an effort to reach out to him. This time I’ll see what he will do.

Actually I don’t know what to think, I don’t know what to do. I guess I should just leave myself be drowned in this ugly side of love…feeling the pain, drowning and drowning into it. Perhaps, after this I will feel disgusted and take action, or I will become numb in the fullest sense of the word.

I guess I will just wait for the right time.

I will just go on with my life… doing something I do everyday… oh no, not that..because he is part of my “everyday”, so rather a more focus on myself this time, how to utilize my skills more, try to become a better person, a more competitive one, a good daughter and sister and aunt, a genuine servant of God, a friend to all my friends, learn more, increase and advance my knowledge… all these for now.

I will set him aside for the mean time. I will scrap him out of my priorities now. After all, I am not even part of his priorities too. I feel like I am just a “part” of his life and not his “life” at all. Unlike me, my life revolves around him. Every decision I make is related to him, to us, for our future…

I’m saving money so I can be with him, so by then I will finally get to know if this is a real for keeps. At least it will answer one question in my life. I have to do this now. I know it’s going to be though and it’s a long wait… but I have to endure it. Along the way I know I will experience so much that will either drag me up or down, but I guess I will just go with the flow of these life’s waves until I reach the shore and get my answers.

I won’t disturb him now. I will try my very best not to think of him often. I will keep myself occupied.

I am getting tired but I don’t want to give up.


3 Mar

by Stephen D. Glass

Never forget your ancestors. Without them, you would be no one!
Never forget where you came from. One day, you may just be that person holding a sign on the street.
Never think that it won’t happen to you. It always will.
Never underestimate the potential and power of the human spirit!
Never be a slave to circumstances. Be the creator of your destiny.
Never let anyone take away your imagination! Never give up on your dreams.
Never mourn for unfulfilled dreams. Just be glad you even had one so wonderful to remember.
Never think less of yourself, but think of yourself less and all the things you dream of will come to you.

Never settle for anything less than the best.
Never be critical, unless you can do it better.
Never mistake motion for action. Never confuse effort with results.
Never let the fear of the unknown be a reason not to try.
Never, ever give up. Never stop trying.
Never start something if you can’t finish it!
Never measure the height of a mountain until you’ve climbed it.
Never make a promise you can’t keep.

Never complain about what you permit.
Never attempt to unscrew what you’ve already screwed up. Learn from your mistakes,live with it, and move on.
Never explain. Your friends don’t need it, and your enemies won’t believe it anyway!
Never take to heart the opinions of people who you don’t respect.
Never trust someone who says, “Trust Me”.
Never take a “NO” answer from someone who can’t say “YES”.
Never argue with an idiot. They drag you down to their level and beat you with experience.
Never underestimate the power of a smile.

Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways.
Never put paperwork before people work.
Never judge a book by its cover.
Never let a kiss fool you, and never let a fool kiss you.
Never lie or cheat. But, if you must lie, lie in each others arms. And, if you must cheat, cheat death.
Never take advantage of things you have or the people that love you.
Never forget to say “I Love You” before your eyes close at night!
Never wait til tomorrow, for tomorrow may never come.

Just pull this out from one webpage (here: )  when I googled the “Never complain about what you permit.” Something to remind myself. Well the ones in bold are my “Never” favorites.

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