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Something To Smile About: Steve Mason of Jars of Clay is an Arsenal Fan!

11 May

I don’t get to do this “Something to Smile About” post ever since I started with my new work. I said before that I’m going to write something that made me smile every week… it’s my way of “Counting the Blessings” or “Exercising My Gratitude Muscles”. 

I’ve read this quote somewhere: “Life is hard, then you die.” Quite true, so might as well deal with that and see the bright side of things and focus on things that at least made us smile. 🙂

Well, a lot of weeks has passed and I know should make up for those weeks I didn’t write about them. But for now, I’m writing about know that:

My favorite Steve Mason... an Arsenal fan! 🙂

Jars of Clay’s Steve Mason is an Arsenal fan! Yes he is! I’ve recently read an article written by Brian Nixon about meeting Jars of Clay last Easter. He particularly mentioned about meeting my favorite Jars of Cay member, the guitarist Steve Mason. Steve was busy watching a football match between Bolton and Arsenal and was rooting for Arsenal of course (Yey! Go Carlos Vela! 🙂 ). Steve was explaining how he got married to football through his English wife. Sweet!

This is the article:  Easter, The English Premier League and Jars of Clay

I’m just happy to know it. I love Jars of Clay and I’m a football fan too ! This just made me smile. 🙂

More of these, next time. 🙂

Admiring My Mother

3 Apr

I admire my Mother. She got a pretty tough job.  She may not have to address the problems of poverty like the president have to, but her ‘job’ is tough.  Maybe even one of the toughest in the world. Imagine being a wife, a mother, a grandmother, a daughter, a sister, a Church Pastor to 9 churches with at least 200 or more members each, a leader, a government consultant, a counselor, and a friend to some. And all these, rolled into one.

What I specifically admire about my mother is that she’s the same person she is inside and outside our house.  Meaning to say, she doesn’t pretend or have a multiple personalities. The compassionate, patient, understanding, helpful, kind-hearted person she is outside or in the church is the same person she is to us inside our home. And I think that is  one of the traits of a true leader.

Growing up, I see how my mother shown these traits. I remember us being in the bus ride to Manila from Lipa, and on our way there was this young woman with her little brother, moaning for a severe stomach pain. Her motherly instinct kicked in. She wasn’t selfish to think that she got 3 young kids to look after to (I think my youngest sister was barely 4 years old that time) and let another person help. But she was quick to extend a hand, prayed for her and even took her to the hospital as soon as we got off the bus. She also began charity at home. Even though she is already married and have kids to support to, she, together with my father, helped her sisters and brothers fund their studies. She didn’t cease in helping them, even until now that they have their own families.

She is patient. Very patient. It will take time for her to get angry. And when she does, please hide, you wouldn’t like it. 😀 I think it’s true that when a patient person loses his/her temper, it’s going be like  World War II. I’ve seen her pissed off. And unfortunately, it was because of me. Well, sometimes because of my sisters too. 😛 You don’t want to see her mad for sure. So you better not test her patience. Like any normal person she also gets angry, whether you believe it or not. 🙂

She is super nice and super kind. And “super” is not even the right word to perfectly describe how nice and kind she is. Serving the church as the Pastor, she has encountered countless problems, both personal and church-related. People come to her for advices, sometimes even for financial help, then there are some who questioned her ways, pressured her for something, sometimes to take their sides over someone’s or influence her decisions. But she won’t let it. She won’t give in. Instead, she prays for them and asks them to pray for those who hurt them. Sometimes, when the attack to her is personal (and sometimes even below the belt), it angers me, my sisters and father, but not her. She always reminds us to be gentle, to just pray for those who hurt us and just speak blessing to them instead.  Sure, her helpfulness, kindness and patience have influenced us, but I don’t think I inherited it 100%. I am not as patient and kind as she is. Sometimes I complain to her for being super nice. If it was me, I would get even! Hahahaha…. Just kidding. 😛

She’s forgiving. Like I mentioned, she just pray for those who hurt her. She didn’t grow up in a well-off family, but she strove hard to succeed. And that means, working at her Auntie’s restaurant while studying in high school at around age 13 I think. She wakes up early in the morning to go to the market, go home and help serve and prepare the customers’ orders, then go to school (and because of that, she’s late to school most of the time) and then go home in the afternoon, help her Auntie again, do her homework after and sleep late. That was her routine everyday for at least 4 years.  She wasn’t treated well by their family too but she didn’t have any bitterness in her heart. I cried when I first heard  that story. I felt sad and furious to hear what she had to go through. But she was quick to tell us how grateful she is to her Auntie’s family because she was able to continue her studies and help her mother and siblings get out of poverty. For her, it was her stepping stone to success.

I know I hurt her also so many times in the past for being somewhat rebellious and so my sisters and my father but she didn’t quit on us, but instead she forgives us for our shortcomings and imperfections.

I could list a lot of things about how admirable my mother is. She is not perfect but I think she possesses the Christ-like character and that’s what makes her truly admirable.

Today is her 53rd birthday and I couldn’t think of a better gift but to put into writing what kind of a person she is – a loving wife, mother, grandmother, sister, daughter, a patient Church Pastor, a humble servant and a true Christian.

Happy birthday Mama!

I am pregnant

16 Mar

I am pregnant.

Okay, I’m not.  Aside from the fact that I am not married yet, I don’t even have a bf.  So it’s quite impossible for that to happen. I’m not even seeing anyone.

Oh well, I just wonder how it would feel to say those words and how my family and friends would react to it. But of course, that depends on which scenario I am in. So far I could think of only two major scenarios (with sub scenarios).

Scenario 1: THE IDEAL

I get married to the most beautiful man in the world and the only one for me.  Close family and friends on our wedding day, honeymoon in a lovely beach in Asia or some romantic city in Europe, then after a few weeks, tada! Honeymoon baby in my tummy! LOL.  Then I announce it to my husband first of course, and he cries the tears of joy (or maybe cries for the impending cost of child birth and child-rearing. lol). Then to my dad and mom. I’m sure they will be so happy especially dad who’s been asking me a lot of times to get married because he wants to see his grandchildren. And to my close friends too who will sure celebrate with me and even organize a baby shower. They will treat me extra special to make sure the baby-on-the way is being taken care of in the best possible way. In short, everyone’s excited and happy.

So ideal right?

Here’s comes…


There are actually sub scenarios:

A – I have a bf and I get pregnant.

B – I don’t have a bf and I get pregnant.

A – I won’t get into details how things happen but it already have.  I just stare into that two pink lines in my pregnancy kit. I tell the bf. (Possible scenarios: He’ll stay and stick with me and help me face my parents and the world. Or get scared and ran away and be the certified a-hole.) Then depending on the bf’s reaction, I go to my parents, nervous and teary-eyed perhaps and humbled. I know if this happens, I won’t be treated like a teenager – ‘You’re not going to see that guy again!’ or whatever it is… I am old enough to face the consequences of my action but still, I know it’s heart-wrenching for any parents.  Then I tell it to my sisters and knowing them, it’s either they obviously show their support through words and actions or just act as if things are ‘normal’ and still show support in the way they know. I then tell it to my best friends and some closest friends. Best friends might cry or get angry or nag. They have the right, I can’t argue with them. Other friends would sure just accept and support, after all it’s already there and they can’t do anything. To make it short, they all support me but they are somehow heart-broken in the inside. All of them and so am I.

B – Okay, this one has a lil twist. How it happen is not important anymore. But in this case, I’ll be all alone except for the time ‘it’ happen. Come on, how can I get pregnant alone? Immaculate conception? LOL. Of course, there’s a dad but he’s not a bf. So I have to do it alone – tell the parents the shocking news that can be compared to the atomic bomb that destroyed a city in Japan eons ago. Ouch. At least in scenario A, there is a 50-50 chance of having the support of the  the bf, but here… Nada! Telling the parents would be the toughest I think. Mom and Dad would feel bad, that’s for sure, but the thought that I’d still be ‘alone’ or a single a parent will sure worry them.  Best friends would react the same way in scenario A and so are the other friends. The ending is the same too. We all feel bad. Btw, telling it to the guy is my choice but maybe I will. Most likely.

Oh yeah, I didn’t mention the religious affiliation of my family because I think, generally parents and friends would react the same way, no matter which religious background they are from. I have a strong Christian background and I know it is against our belief that you do it before marriage. However, I am human and I am weak too and I sin. I’m not perfect but I always want to do the right thing. I bet nobody wants to break the hearts of their loved ones.

I want that when I tell them “I am pregnant”, everyone in the world rejoices with me and so my God up there. 🙂

Rhythm Of My Game – Kaka’s beautiful testinomy.

20 Jan

Here’s the testimony of my most favorite football player in the world, KAKA:

I hope and pray that you will be blessed and touched also by this video. May God bless us all!

Out Of My Hands

19 Nov

“Out Of My Hands is a frightening song to sing because it acknowledges the truth that scares me that I don’t have anything to do with God’s love for me. And I can’t make Him love me more. I want to be responsible for some of that someday. And the truth is, the gifts God has given us, the gifts God has given me, the gifts God has given us, the community, His church are just that, they’re gifts. We haven’t done anything to earn it. “- Steve Mason of Jars of Clay.

Indeed. Well said.

Out Of My Hands is one my favorite songs out of Jars of Clay‘s newest record, The Shelter. I already fell in love with the song the first time I heard it because it just reminded me of God’s love and how things are really ‘out of my hands’ since the start. It’s humbling. I thank God for Jars of Clay’s gift of writing beautiful music since 1995.

Out of My Hands – Jars of Clay

I wasted the rescue,
abandoned the mission.
I’ve failed by my own hand
and watched it all go wrong

You said you could save me
that I couldn’t save myself
You said that you loved me
no matter what I’ve done

When the light is gone
and life is just a day we take
Still the fight goes on
to give my heart away

And It’s out of my hands
It was from the start
In light of what you’ve done for me x2

You lifted my head
Set me apart

In light of what you’ve done for me
This is what you’ve done for me
It’s out of my hands

You grow where the light is
Like trees in the highlands
We’re bent by our own plans
to keep us in the dark

And I act like an orphan
Forget that you found me
but you came like a whisper
and saved me with a spark

When the light is gone
and life is just a dare we take
Still the fight goes on and on
to give my heart away

And it’s out of my hands
it was from the start
in light of what you’ve done for me x2

You lifted my head
Set me apart

In light of what you’ve done for me
this is what you’ve done for me

It’s out of my hands
It’s out of my hands

There’s nothing in the world that I can offer
nothing in the world that I can stand apart

Apart from you, apart from you

There’s nothing in my life,
nothing in my life that you haven’t given to me

It’s out of my hands
It was from the start

In light of what you’ve done x2

You lifted my head
You set me apart
In light of what you’ve done
In light of what you’ve done for me

Ohhh It’s out of my hand x2
In light of what you’ve done for me x2

You lifted my head,
set me apart
In light of what you’ve done for me
This is what you’ve done for me

It’s out of my hands x2
Everything I have Lord
Everything I gave
It’s out of my hands x2

Oh it’s out of my hands

How Joshua Harris Made Me Unproductive For A Day (Part 1)

20 Sep

There are a lot of things that are going through my mind lately. Just this Monday, I was at work but didn’t really do any work, because my mind was (and still is, till now) occupied that kept me off my concentration to get things done at the office. Although I did few minor stuff done, but most of the time I just spent it contemplating about life and myself and my surroundings. I was not glued to my chair all day, I kept standing up, walking, going to the washroom, pantry, locker room and even outside the office. And aside that I was quite annoyed over some people in my workplace, I was occupied thinking about things that I might say, really matters.

I’d like to blame Joshua Harris for this. LOL. No, I’m kidding. But well, yeah after listening to one of his sermons I’ve downloaded online a week ago, Some nagging questions started to stepped in. The sermon’s title is “Don’t waste your life”.

Being a reader of Joshua Harris’ books for almost a decade now, not to mention my irregular visit to his blog and their church websites, I feel like I know him personally now. I don’t know. I am now accustomed to his style, may it be writing or preaching.. yet he still and always amazes me of his profound ideas and the anointing God has given him. Although I find almost all of his sermons very enriching and helpful to my life specifically the spiritual aspect of my life, this particular “Don’t Waste Your Life” sermon has made an impact on me, especially, when he asked the question, “Did you live for what matters?” Although there are more stuff to learn and contemplate from the sermon, but that particular phrase/question moved me. It has been a few days now that I use the “Do you live for what matters?” phrase as my status message on my yahoo messenger, msn, skype, and gmail, and yeah even on my account on facebook. I think I just wanted to remind myself of the question all time by writing them everywhere. Also get the others on my friend’s list thinking too if they are “living for what matters.” I’m sure somehow it made it them think. One of my friends even responded to it saying, “what a question!” Another one said, “that made me think!” I knew what they meant by that.

I’ve already had tons of nagging questions in my head, but this one tops all of them. Do I live for what matters? I started thinking of what really matters not only in my life but in this world. Because if I am to define or enumerate what matters in my life, I could list a lot of selfish things that I think really matters. I could think about myself, my career, family, relationship, (well these two really matters), then promotion, savings, traveling local and overseas, car, house/condo, etc.. all of which are considered too selfish (except for the two I’d say).

Then I started to look at it in a Christian perspective… what God has given me, the “talents” that I am supposed to use, to cultivate or increase or make use of, not for my glory but for His. The resources God has blessed me with, how can I use it to show the world of God’s greatness? Then I started thinking if I am being a blessing to my family and to all the people around me or am I being a burden?

I could reveal too much about myself if I will write all the thoughts I have on this blog. But I guess I am just too overwhelmed of the ideas and questions that I can’t really put them all into writing.

You see, being a Christian, not to mention a member of a Minister’s family, is something I should say not easy. Don’t get me wrong, being a Christian is wonderful. I feel privileged to get to know Jesus, to be able to worship him, to be His child and to be saved. Being a Christian is a privilege. That’s how I look at it. You have this unlimited access to God, to talk Him, knowing He really listens and cares. These are just some of the wonderful things about being a Christian, but it wasn’t easy as well. Although now I meet a lot of Christians everywhere I go, still sometimes, I can’t help but feel different from the rest when you are one. I am not saying it’s bad but they just don’t or can’t understand why I act or do things this or that way.

And having a parent as Church Pastor (the head pastor in our area, you see I am from one of the big Christian churches in my country) is another thing. When I was a growing up, I used to think if being a pastor’s kid is a curse or a blessing. Although I must admit that we not only experience the “privilege” of knowing Christ but also the “fringe benefits” of being part of this family. Yes you get special treatments and all.. ( which sometimes I honestly do not enjoy) but hey, that is part of it. I could mention a lot of things that can be classified as good and not so good about being a pastor’s child. But as I grew older, God has started to make me realize that this is one of what he has given me, one the resources that he blessed me with that I should make use of. Instead of running away from it, rebelling against my parent’s position at the church, I should take it as an advantage to give back the glory to Him. It may be hard to be a pastor’s child but this is God what has given me and I must embraced it and help my parents fulfill their “duties” at the church and at home.

Another is, I am also blessed to be offered a position in the company I’m working for. I know this is just one of His works in my life. That is why, everyday, I acknowledge my nothingness before him, asking him continuously for wisdom and knowledge and the leadership skills and all the things I need to give justice to the role that he entrusted me with. Sometimes, I get weary and feel like backing out especially when I get overwhelmed with all the negativity I am facing… that I am thinking of quitting my job. Yet, God will remind me that I am here in this position not for what is written on my CV but because God has put me here. And who am I not to accept? And like being a pastor’s child, I also get to enjoy the fringe benefits of being a supervisor in my workplace, but I know on top of those privileges, God put me in this post for a reason and that is what matters. I am not here for nothing. He has put me here to bring back the glory back to Him.

to be continued…

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