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I am not supposed to be in Manila right now. I should be in India.

5 Feb

Well, I should be In Mumbai or Allahabad right now.

Tomorrow is my friend’s wedding in India. He told me about his big day about 6 months ago and invited me to be there as he wed his lovely bride. He said that he had to inform me earlier so that I can book flights, file for at least 2-week leave from work and save so I can be there on his special day. I know 6 months is still a short notice, considering I live in the South East, and fare is already a little expensive. But actually, he’s been inviting me to his wedding even before he got engaged. Actually years, before he got engaged.



He even sent me an invitation through email and I got overly excited seeing the colorful invitation that contains some of their photos, and info of the different ceremonies prior to the wedding (Mehendi, Sangeet, Haldi) the wedding itself and the two wedding receptions in Mumbai and Allahabad. It’s a week-long celebration! No wonder he asked me to take a 2-week off from work. He said, 1 week for his wedding and another if I want to tour in some parts of India.



Of course I said Yes, with the intention of really coming over to the wedding. But months before today, I thought hard about it and after much contemplation, I decided that I had to miss it. *sighs*

There are reasons.

Now, I feel bad about it. I should be there! I can’t believe I let an opportunity to witness something wonderful, go away. I have never been to India and never been to a Hindu or any Indian wedding. I’ve only seen them in movies and I thought that attending a wedding is a great way to experience a culture, especially if it’s something different from what I am used to.



I always wanted to visit India. I thought that they have a rich culture and tradition that I find so fascinating. And attending one of their celebrated life events – a wedding, is a great way to immerse into their culture.

In my bucket list, I included there attending an Indian wedding. I would have crossed it by now. Sure, I can still cross it from the list someday. I could attend another Indian wedding but I guess it won’t be as special as the wedding tomorrow, because it is not my friend’s anymore.


The Wedding Ceremony

The Wedding Ceremony

Anyway, even if I am not there to physically witness their union and celebrate with them as they start their lives together, my heart and thoughts are with them. I wish them more blessings and God’s love to bind them together, forever.


Butthead, you will be missed.

7 Dec

Butthead is one of our dogs. He used to be our baby at home. He would stay inside the house, usually pampered, especially by mom. He was such a sweet dog but also very protective of us. When my niece was born, we had to choice but to let him stay outside. But he would still go inside the house during daytime and he would get jealous if one of us would play or cuddle my niece. He would bark or do something to get our attention. But then, eventually he got used to it and have become protective even to my niece who calls him Bagded as she couldn’t pronounce his name properly. Later on, another dog came to our lives, that’s Aslan and just recently, a puppy we named Caspian joined our family. Butthead being the oldest, was very protective of them too. And the dogs in our neighborhood are just too afraid of him.

But today is a sad day. Butthead just died. He wasn’t eating for the past 2 or 3 days, just drinking water only once or twice. He would barely respond when his name is called. Yesterday, he still can wag his tail when I called him. But this afternoon, when I talked to him while I ran my fingers through his ivory hair, he just looked at me, looking very weak and disconnected. He’s no longer the tough-looking dog he used to be. Before I left my family’s house this evening, I even said bye to him and told him to get well soon. He didn’t respond, he was just laying flat on the ground but he was still breathing. Before mom left my place, I told her to take him to the vet tomorrow morning. But then a few hours later, I received a text message from my Auntie telling me that he died as soon as my parents arrived. It is as if, he just waited to see mom and dad so he could say goodbye. I called mom and she said, when they arrived home, Butthead tried to stand up to run towards them but he was too weak so he fell back to the ground, then he moaned for the last time and breathe his last breath. It was sad. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Butthead looking very weak. This was taken today by my sister. Miss you Butthead!

I will miss him. I will miss saying “Hey boys” to the three of them every time I see them. Now it’s just Aslan and Caspian at home.

Thank you for the friendship Butthead. You were a great Dog. I thank God for you for keeping my family and our house safe at night when we are asleep. I will miss you.

I just haven’t met you yet – By Michael Buble

31 Oct

Today, I was able to chat to one of my friends from college through facebook. We have chatted a bit about what’s going on with each of our lives. She asked, “How’s your love life?” I laughed and answered, “I don’t know but it seems the love life doesn’t like me.LOL” and I said, “or maybe I just haven’t met him yet.” ๐Ÿ™‚

I stumbled on this song from one blog on wordpress that posted something about women in 40s who still have hopes of getting married and not destined to be old maids. The article was good. Funny and interesting article. Nope. I’m not forty yet and that will take me more than a decade before I turn one, but I definitely can relate to the article and can use some of advices and tips given. ๐Ÿ™‚

I am not ugly. Some says I am pretty. LOL (Or are they just being nice to me? LOL) But yeah I know I’m not ugly, but yeah, I need to work on my figure and get into shape. Oh well, but that’s another story to blog about. I haven’t really been in a ‘relationship’ in the real sense of the word. Well yes I have. But they were men I met online and dated only through the cyberspace (thanks to webcam and headset!). There are some men who had a crush on me (they said) and I also noticed some looking at me (perhaps, because I have a dirt on my face? lol). But I don’t know why I am still single until now. I’m not a snob. Not exactly. Kidding.ย  Well, yesย  I am quite picky at times (okay most of the time) especially to the people I talk to, but I have reasons. One would be because I’m shy. I am generally shy. Second, I value privacy too much and I don’t open to everyone, only to those who I considered my closest and trusted friends but others equate this to me being a snob. I am not. I just don’t want the whole world to know about my private life. That’s one reason I didn’t join showbiz. lol. Some said, I have a very high standard when it comes to a partner. No. Not really. I just only have one requirement – He needs to have it all. hahaha…. kidding. Of course, I’m not hard to please, but really don’t make me talk to someone who only cares about his looks and the latest fashion and gadgets. I want BRAINS! (No, I don’t eat brains. lol) My friend said I’m demanding and high maintenance. Not true. But well I deserve the best. ๐Ÿ™‚ Some said, men get intimidated with me, one reason is because I’m my mother’s daughter (Don’t ask what my mother do), another is my former job (so it’s a good thing I resigned? lol) I think some of these are the main factors, that I ended up having online relationship, particularly to people living overseas and people who are from different backgrounds. Maybe it be romantic or plain platonic relationship.

Well online romantic relationship, I know these days it isย  not a new thing anymore and a lot have been into one or are currently in one. It is not easy. But I have to say, the feelings are real. You will really fall in love and will invest time and effort to make things work, just like any normal romantic relationship.

Like this man from India that I met back in 2004. For 6 years, (yes until the present) we’ve communicated and had an on and off relationship (it’s ‘off’ right now). It wasn’t easy for the two us. The distance that separate us makes it even more difficult, not to mention the fact that he is from a very conservative family who value their tradition and religion that much which is one of the many big hurdles we have faced (is still facing, maybe). Well apparently, their family and their religion/community won’t allow them to marry someone from another religion or even someone not from their hometown/state. We have so many plans. Well we used to. He was supposed to come here a few months ago and stay here to find a job and be with me, though the wedding plan was not part of it for the reason I have mentioned above. Everything was ready. His family who knows me only as his good friend, approved of his plans of moving here for a job. But then, unfortunately, his visa was denied. He was crushed. But I was more than crushed. There was also a time when I had a job offer in his country to be an English Teacher to Koreans staying there. They didn’t offer me that much, but at the time, I was willing to take everything just to be with him. However, for some reasons, he was confused and all that made me not accept the offer. For the 6 years we’ve spent our time chatting online, talking and sharing a lot of things, some were really intimate even, I could say that I really have loved him and still love him. And now, despite our situation (we’re not talking right now), I still feel the same way.ย  Last time we talked, when I cried so much telling me to just forget about me, he insisted that he can’t and he doesn’t want our communication to end. He said he’s saving up so that he could come here and meet me. Yes, just meet me but not to marry me. Yes, he said that too. (Ouch!) Oh well, I’m just being brave right now…well trying to be. Although, I still think about him,everyday, every minute, involuntarily, I’m trying not to get too affected or I’ll be sobbing all day. Every time I think of him, I just say a prayer. Sometimes, I can’t help but cry but sometimes, I just sigh over the things I have no control of. I just think that if he is for me, I don’t have to do anything anymore, God will make a way for us.

I’m 28 right now and still single. I met him at 22. Some of my friends told me I wasted my time waiting for him. He made me wait that long they said and I don’t even deserve it. Yes I know I deserve the best but honestly for the years we’ve spent together, although there were moments we’ve shed so many bucket of tears (yes, both us cried but I guess it’s more of me crying.), I have never felt so happy. Even the distance didn’t hinder us.

Right now, I’m still being very optimistic. I think I had enough of negative thoughts in my head. Worries will not help me. If he’s the one, then he is. If not, God will send me the better version of him. ๐Ÿ™‚ Maybe, I just haven’t met him yet. But I hope to meet him soon. ๐Ÿ™‚

Haven’t Met You Yet – Michael Buble

I’m Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
Have Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stopped Keepin Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Now Someday That It’ll All Turn Out
You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Mmmmm ….

I Might Have To Wait
I’ll Never Give Up
I Guess It’s Half Time
And The Other Half’s Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It’s Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Hmmmmm ……

And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

They Say All’s Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won’t Need To Fight It
We’ll Get It By It ??
To Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Hmmm …..

And Someday I Know It’ll All Turn Out
And I’ll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I’ll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get han I Get

Oh You Know It Will All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

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