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Life Goes On

23 Jun

“Don’t feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them.”

Just to make it clear, I have not given up. No! And I am not giving up. There are important people in my life right now who I haven’t spoke to in months, not because it is my choice but because it is the circumstance. But I am not giving up on them even if they seem to have done the opposite.

I guess I’m just like that – stubborn. I do not give up easily especially on people who matters to me. It is hard for me to let go. I think it is also because when I let one person into my inner circle, it means I really value that person, that I am sincere with the friendship or the romantic relationship I share with them.

Just like one of the tweets I recently read,  “The hardest thing is not talking to someone you used to talk to everyday.” Indeed. When there something good or bad that happens to me, I want to share it to them. But since they are “gone”, I just can’t help but feel lonely and alone.

But even if my heart grieves, my life won’t stop. Life goes on. I have to go on, I have to move forward. They may not be in my ‘present’ to share my journey, but I hope to see them again in my future.

 

 

Today, I Will Put the Past Away.

4 Feb

Today, I'm moving on.

 

I can’t wait to know the ‘REASON’ why things didn’t work out between you and me.

Disconnected

14 Oct

Today, I saw someone who looked like you. You both have the same beautiful eyes so I stared at him… into his eyes.

But there was nothing.

There was no connection.

If a girl can put up with you through your worst days and still stick with you and your mistakes, then you shouldn’t let her go

18 Sep

I just read this somewhere, don’t even know who actually said it but I like it.

“If a girl can put up with you through your worst days and  still stick with you and your mistakes, then you shouldn’t let her go. “

Let go (Google images)

59 Seconds…

12 Jan

Her mobile phone rang just as she was about to hang up the desk phone. It was a missed call and a very familiar name appeared on the screen.

She looked again carefully to check if it was indeed the caller.

Then the mobile rang again.

This time, she was certain. And it wasn’t just a missed call. She took a deep breath and answered as she stepped outside their front door heading to the car where her father was waiting.

Her first word was,  “Hi.”

“Hi, Happy Birthday!”, he replied.

Her body was shaking but thankfully her voice wasn’t.

“Oh you remember”, she smiled as she inquired and hopped inside the car.

“Of course, I remember” he assured her.

Then he asked what’s she’s doing and how is she. She said she’s fine and doing great, but didn’t give too many information, although she wanted to tell him what she just recently accomplished. It was quite unbelievable for her though. She wonders, if it was really happening.

Then she asked, “What about you, how are you?”

“I’m just okay. Just waking up…” he started, then the next words were unclear as things started to just sink into her senses.

“It’s real, we’re really talking. He called me. He remembered.”, she thought to herself.

“I mean how are you…. what have you been doing these days…” she inquired again.

He answered but his voice was not so clear, maybe because of the bad reception of her mobile or maybe because she couldn’t seem to focus as she couldn’t believe it was really happening.

Then the line was cut.

She stared into nothingness for some brief seconds, still couldn’t believe it just happened. Then she looked at her mobile phone and took out her hands-free preparing for his call.

But he didn’t call again.

She was teary-eyed and her mind wandered. She wasn’t expecting it all.

She didn’t notice they already reached the school and was greeted with a loud happy birthday greeting by her sister, niece, bro-in-law and the teachers.

She checked the call logs to see the call’s duration. It says: “59 seconds”

And it was the most precious 59 seconds in her day.

I just haven’t met you yet – By Michael Buble

31 Oct

Today, I was able to chat to one of my friends from college through facebook. We have chatted a bit about what’s going on with each of our lives. She asked, “How’s your love life?” I laughed and answered, “I don’t know but it seems the love life doesn’t like me.LOL” and I said, “or maybe I just haven’t met him yet.” 🙂

I stumbled on this song from one blog on wordpress that posted something about women in 40s who still have hopes of getting married and not destined to be old maids. The article was good. Funny and interesting article. Nope. I’m not forty yet and that will take me more than a decade before I turn one, but I definitely can relate to the article and can use some of advices and tips given. 🙂

I am not ugly. Some says I am pretty. LOL (Or are they just being nice to me? LOL) But yeah I know I’m not ugly, but yeah, I need to work on my figure and get into shape. Oh well, but that’s another story to blog about. I haven’t really been in a ‘relationship’ in the real sense of the word. Well yes I have. But they were men I met online and dated only through the cyberspace (thanks to webcam and headset!). There are some men who had a crush on me (they said) and I also noticed some looking at me (perhaps, because I have a dirt on my face? lol). But I don’t know why I am still single until now. I’m not a snob. Not exactly. Kidding.  Well, yes  I am quite picky at times (okay most of the time) especially to the people I talk to, but I have reasons. One would be because I’m shy. I am generally shy. Second, I value privacy too much and I don’t open to everyone, only to those who I considered my closest and trusted friends but others equate this to me being a snob. I am not. I just don’t want the whole world to know about my private life. That’s one reason I didn’t join showbiz. lol. Some said, I have a very high standard when it comes to a partner. No. Not really. I just only have one requirement – He needs to have it all. hahaha…. kidding. Of course, I’m not hard to please, but really don’t make me talk to someone who only cares about his looks and the latest fashion and gadgets. I want BRAINS! (No, I don’t eat brains. lol) My friend said I’m demanding and high maintenance. Not true. But well I deserve the best. 🙂 Some said, men get intimidated with me, one reason is because I’m my mother’s daughter (Don’t ask what my mother do), another is my former job (so it’s a good thing I resigned? lol) I think some of these are the main factors, that I ended up having online relationship, particularly to people living overseas and people who are from different backgrounds. Maybe it be romantic or plain platonic relationship.

Well online romantic relationship, I know these days it is  not a new thing anymore and a lot have been into one or are currently in one. It is not easy. But I have to say, the feelings are real. You will really fall in love and will invest time and effort to make things work, just like any normal romantic relationship.

Like this man from India that I met back in 2004. For 6 years, (yes until the present) we’ve communicated and had an on and off relationship (it’s ‘off’ right now). It wasn’t easy for the two us. The distance that separate us makes it even more difficult, not to mention the fact that he is from a very conservative family who value their tradition and religion that much which is one of the many big hurdles we have faced (is still facing, maybe). Well apparently, their family and their religion/community won’t allow them to marry someone from another religion or even someone not from their hometown/state. We have so many plans. Well we used to. He was supposed to come here a few months ago and stay here to find a job and be with me, though the wedding plan was not part of it for the reason I have mentioned above. Everything was ready. His family who knows me only as his good friend, approved of his plans of moving here for a job. But then, unfortunately, his visa was denied. He was crushed. But I was more than crushed. There was also a time when I had a job offer in his country to be an English Teacher to Koreans staying there. They didn’t offer me that much, but at the time, I was willing to take everything just to be with him. However, for some reasons, he was confused and all that made me not accept the offer. For the 6 years we’ve spent our time chatting online, talking and sharing a lot of things, some were really intimate even, I could say that I really have loved him and still love him. And now, despite our situation (we’re not talking right now), I still feel the same way.  Last time we talked, when I cried so much telling me to just forget about me, he insisted that he can’t and he doesn’t want our communication to end. He said he’s saving up so that he could come here and meet me. Yes, just meet me but not to marry me. Yes, he said that too. (Ouch!) Oh well, I’m just being brave right now…well trying to be. Although, I still think about him,everyday, every minute, involuntarily, I’m trying not to get too affected or I’ll be sobbing all day. Every time I think of him, I just say a prayer. Sometimes, I can’t help but cry but sometimes, I just sigh over the things I have no control of. I just think that if he is for me, I don’t have to do anything anymore, God will make a way for us.

I’m 28 right now and still single. I met him at 22. Some of my friends told me I wasted my time waiting for him. He made me wait that long they said and I don’t even deserve it. Yes I know I deserve the best but honestly for the years we’ve spent together, although there were moments we’ve shed so many bucket of tears (yes, both us cried but I guess it’s more of me crying.), I have never felt so happy. Even the distance didn’t hinder us.

Right now, I’m still being very optimistic. I think I had enough of negative thoughts in my head. Worries will not help me. If he’s the one, then he is. If not, God will send me the better version of him. 🙂 Maybe, I just haven’t met him yet. But I hope to meet him soon. 🙂

Haven’t Met You Yet – Michael Buble

I’m Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
Have Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stopped Keepin Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Now Someday That It’ll All Turn Out
You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Mmmmm ….

I Might Have To Wait
I’ll Never Give Up
I Guess It’s Half Time
And The Other Half’s Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It’s Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Hmmmmm ……

And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

They Say All’s Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won’t Need To Fight It
We’ll Get It By It ??
To Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Hmmm …..

And Someday I Know It’ll All Turn Out
And I’ll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I’ll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get han I Get

Oh You Know It Will All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

FIREPROOF

7 Oct

I’m not sure if this movie will ever hit our local cinemas but whatever happens, I’m going to watch it. The trailer alone was so good, inspiring and touching. Here is the trailer:

I wish he would watch this movie too. Yes we aren’t married yet but I know this will help us in our relationship right now especially that we are in this stage of confusion and in search for answers.

*Their official site: http://fireproofthemovie.com/

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